On a Positive Note...

donno whether it's the flower essences from the medical intuitive lady i'm working with (ah to be in CA, land of the "nuts and flakes", as mom calls it), or the sun making a return trip this week, the Alaksan cold front that decided to return to its homeland, or the switch to distilled water, but i feel so much better physically lately. damn, still wish it wasn't so much of mystery of how to feel good.

the flower essences do seem to take the edge off. or maybe i'm in the cone of silence with my trip. i've shed my possessions, done my planning, and freed myself of the responsibilities of utility bills, dating, social obligations and all future comitments, yet still have the security of 'home'. life is simpler now. i have all my bills (which only number 5) on paperless or auto deduct. i have only 1 comitment, to capoeira, 2 times a week, and only 1 focus- this trip. no complications of 'how do i make a living?', no relationship drama, no confusion or chaos about what to do next. it's very nice, actually. almost tempting me out of going. if it could just be this good......

If i could just find a way to make a good living in a flexible environment where i work for myself and dictate my own hours of the day, i would be so much happier. i guess that will be my mission when i get back. honestly, i don't even care what it is, whether it's being a writer or a feng shui consultant, a lifecoach or a dog sitter. as long as i am free to dictate my own time with a lot of it to spare and make plenty of money.

the trip is giving me excitement and passion that's been lacking for years. it fills me up. my good sweet god, it really does. SOME THING does! guess that's it for now.